what has been lost? (¬_¬)

I never felt what was happening in my life as if I was numb and did not believe with all that I feel ..oh god. right or wrong way that I take for now? 

What Was I too selfish?

what it is too stupid of me?
 sometimes I always think to go too far from your life, I thought that that would solve everything that has happened.pain is always felt when you guys always do that.I always wait and hope there is time and something that will you make for me:)ooh god ..excuse me ..but I always love you:)and I always want you ..but if more happy without me  I will thank and continue to beat!! : D